Healing….. and dying (3)

23Jun08

I haven’t been saying much in the blogosphere the past 2 weeks. This is mostly due to what’s been going on around the severe illness of my fellow-church member that I was writing about previously.

One-and-a-half weeks ago I received an email announcing his passing-away. Although I was sort of expecting an announcement any day, I was still flabbergasted. So God didn’t heal him? Why? What’s going to happen with his kids and his wife? Why? Why? WHy? WHY?????

Last Tuesday was the memorial service. I really had to get myself together and push myself to go, because I so much dreaded to go. The service itself was even worse than I thought. It was a fabulous service, but the emotions were almost too much for me. Even when writing this, I feel tears coming to my eyes. During the service I went from sadness to anger to joy and back to sadness.

These emotions made it impossible for me to write. I didn’t know how to put my emotions to words. Even now I feel it’s hard to write a good piece of text. Apparently the emotions are still just a little bit beneath the surface.

On the other hand, our pastor preached a very encouraging and balanced sermon on healing. I would like to come back to this sermon, my thoughts and emotions and also other thoughts on healing.

More to come!

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